Growing up

I never like to being as a grown up. Too much responsible, too much to think.
People expect and demand more from you. No more excuses, less mistake should be made.
You can say that I am a irresponsible person. But the fact is I just don't like to be tied up with all these thing.
How much should I give to my family, how much should I save for my future. What impact will it be by doing so.

I like having freedom...but sadly to say, only growing up can give me freedom...Contradict...

I cannot be naive, asking silly question, talking and doing silly thing. I need to be mature and behave like a grown up. I don't want to be so.

I wish I will be a grown up that can live as myself rather than live as what other expect me to be...