Insomnia

I had only slept for 2 hours, now feeling very terrible.
Seem hardly able to breath, no appetite, stomach pain, slightly diarrhoe...

Gladly today I don't need to out with mum. Hopefully I will manage to get some rest...
Second time insomnia...

Until the situation is solved, I cannot really function normally...

Waiting....

Growing up

I never like to being as a grown up. Too much responsible, too much to think.
People expect and demand more from you. No more excuses, less mistake should be made.
You can say that I am a irresponsible person. But the fact is I just don't like to be tied up with all these thing.
How much should I give to my family, how much should I save for my future. What impact will it be by doing so.

I like having freedom...but sadly to say, only growing up can give me freedom...Contradict...

I cannot be naive, asking silly question, talking and doing silly thing. I need to be mature and behave like a grown up. I don't want to be so.

I wish I will be a grown up that can live as myself rather than live as what other expect me to be...

At home

Currently working as full time maid and driver
will be going to be part time worker in uncle's garden....
LOL....
I am jobless.....

Patient and learn

I used to tell my friend that I will go for a match making
if I don't have boyfriend before age of 27.
I don't want to have late marriage and give birth at old age.
But deep down in me, am I really prepared for it?
To be somebody wife and somebody mum.
Am I qualify for it? Will I be able to do it well?
Having friends getting married at my age.
Envy with their happiness but I know it is still a long way for me to go.
I cannot even take good care of myself, how am I going to take good care of others??

What is marriage?
what will it be after marriage?
creating new life?

responsibility of two or whole family?

...I know the answer is inside me...
...I just need to be patient and learn...
...until I become a better person.

Travel-ING

Recently I had been traveling around quite a lot.
when to Miri and Brunei before coming back from Kuching
2 weeks later went to Melaka and Pulau Langkawi.
Now I am in KL and soon will be the long waited trip.
(KL is not longer my travel place, although I am still not familiar with it.)

Love the feeling of travel.
For me, travel doesn't mean visiting all the famous place and eat the famous food.
Travel is about experiencing different culture, different people, different life.
Love the feeling of learning new things while traveling
opening my eyes with bigger view and hopefully with a bigger heart.

ps: I miss traveling with you, looking forward for it.

This is what I love to do
and I will continue for it no matter what ^^
travel-ING !!!

Baby sit

Several days baby sit my cousin make me realised something
I am not a good mum....LOL....

taking care of young child need lot patient and care
but i am nearly driven crazy by my young cousin
I can't get to arrange my time properly too
I didn't get to prepared the dinner while guiding them to bath
need to wake up early for breakfast and serve by the time they wake up
a lot of small little thing need to be concerned

Wow, it is a tough job

Longlive to our mum!!!!