positive!!!

I am not angry, perhaps just want to find someone to sympathe me...I am so silly to have this kind of though...
Today played netball...quite fun...
I don't want them to be dependent as we are going to leave them soon...however...I will remind myself to remind him...I will do my best for it...

People get tired after too many thing...am I a coward or ? can anybody understand that kind of feeling?...I feel so bad when seeing them being so busy but I am so free...feel so bad that I didn't really get to help them but creating more trouble to them...

I am so confused...I am tired from all this but I couldn't just stand there and watch...I didn't really do anything great...all are so terrible...

I am seeking for help....seeking for positive power....something that wake me up from this terrible darkness....is like a hidden bom in my heart, able to explore at anytime...

for him, things will stop by today, as I write over here, I will definitely do it.
sorry that I keep making u guy's day so boring with almost the same topic...I will not talk bout it anymore. I don't want to give myself any hope anymore.(does it consider as hope or it should be a illusion of my own)....I wont step the first steps for sure, if so do u, then let's end at here...we are friend ONLY....

cheer for my heart, cheer for the freedom of my soul...I will clean my sky with positive energy...
wenshu, please do not feel sad/dissapointed/angry anymore in the future, widen your view and enlarge your heart...accept what couldn't be accepted, understand what it should be...jia you, I know you will make it de^^

I am a silly girl...

now I finally understand when the bond between two people start changing, everything changed...
Thing might not be the same as past when this happened...
When your friend become your boss, relationship between two of you will be different eventually...
You will have to change the way you treat the person too...
now i understand why my friend said so...
"I don't want you to treat me as friend first because I want us to be together. Thing will be different when I am your friend first..."
now I agree with it....I am keep cycling around the same question...I still don't have the answer, time is eating my patient...perhaps this is the answer....we will always be senior and junior, vp n s...
things will get better when times goes by....

what a busy day

Today full with activities.
Morning join Sakura Ceria...circle the lake...wow, long time didn't run, is tired man!
haiz, malay style of aerobic really not my cup of tea...I don't feel like warmed lo....result, I feel bit pain at both my legs...

before the next activities, went to BRC to photocopy things, fortunately the person over there is nice^^....finally we don't need go so far to photocopy le, it even provide binding survice^^....but BRC is kind of far from my hostel....:x

after that, watches a basketball competition, three to three....hehe, saw a awesome guy, he is good in basketball, keep score for three point ball...almost all the ball he shot goal....^^....too bad...is not available....just kidding la....

Back to hostel for the follow on activity....then went HEP there for club...thanks toro and hilary for coming and accompany me over there although they know we are not going to pool today...perhaps this is the main reason why I am so moody in the morning...
coincidently....we met him over there....haha....I just realised that I always able to track smile on his face....^^....that really bright my day better
(perhaps...this is the part that make my day...Hilary asked him why didn't asked shu to follow, he just say I didn't wanna follow...:p...rubbish...why I mind bout it so much....stupid....)

Once I have step out the first step, I am ready for everthing that follows...
quoted from somebody words....

toro shared something with me, although I didn't able to help him lot....but I sincerely hope that he will get to figure it out....don't be greedy my fren, find time or a person to sit down and think about it ya^^....everything will gonna be fine^^

later will be the 4hours plus movie session....oh my god, I need to don my assignment by today, if not I will die very soon....tomorrow going for Bola Jaring selection (great, I forgot to ask toro bout it....haiz....)...it will be a tired day again....hopefully everything will be done within my planing....JIA YOU~!!!!

a bit blue sky...

Don't ask me, I also don't know why am I so moody today.
Didn't had dinner, coz don't feel so though I am hungry now.

I felt scared, worry that there are things that I forgotten
I felt scared, worry that I didn't do the thing well
when failure keep on repeating, I feel so sad, feel so useless and hopeless...power low....
when I am not being trusted, I feel so meaningless that what I had did...

I really don't like this kind of feeling...is reducing my power...I feel there is something pressing on my chest...something unfinished....

Today planned to watch Legion...but I cancelled the date....though I really wish to go.....

Couldn't find anything that cheer my heart....

hopefully the dark blue sky will faster been blow away by the warm warm winds....

where is my direction

Today I just realised that I am going to graduate soon. Final Year Project(FYP) is just around the corner.
Now we learning the technique of preparing FYP, and yet I couldn't figure out what title I would like to have. I am struggling...

...why I always struggle at the cross road....

follow your interest? something that is easy? something that you will learn lot?
what is my interest? I am not very sure too....should it be something that i might work in the future....

I understand the theory of choosing but I just dunno how to make the decision....

I do not like this feeling......


ps:haha, i am not a decision maker...not even for my marriage...i think....sweat....

warm welcome

A huge hug for two cute little baby in my house^^
cannot wait to see them when I got back home
hope they will like me too.
will try to upload their picture over here once i got it

hope mum will be able to bear with them
they r still so young....hopefully they are obedient....is the greatest news I had for yesterday^^

Fate had bring us together, and bonded together.
I pray for your health and happiness....
I will definitely love you guys though I wont have much chances to spend time with you^^



muacks~my beloved hitam and cookies^^



ps:i wonder who give this name, sound so cute and sweet...^^

is it a bad day?

Yesterday was a adventures day.

Lost on the way to salon, then lost way back from MJC some more.
but fortunately we manage to get a short cut back to uni.
Besides that, car brake down in uni cause no petrol. It was so sacry, but fortunately we are not out of uni yet. Haha, later on, they are so phobia, we eventually perol RM10 for the car.

I feel so bad as my little junior quarrel with his girlfriend as he did not manage to get to her on time. I hope everything will be fine after this.
However, we still manage to settle everything on time, just poor Ram need to burn the midnight oil for his assignment....

thank you guy for accompany me over, the first time having full car of guy^^
(though this is their responsibility^^)
I really have to admit that Hilary is sweet, too bad, he is bit young for me...Jia you for the one you like^^

Today is the day voting for MPP, I hope my friend will manage to win with a good post^^.

ps: this is kind of weird post...not consistence...bear with me...