Rat

Rat doesn't belong to any household....

They lowly stay in the dark side

barely find a place to hide themselve avoid from view

struggling to survive in the community....

They are not allow to surface

not allowed to have their stand

as they are not one of the community....

They hide here and there to get peace

lowly searching food to survive

When will they be released??

or this is what they deserve??

this is what they belong???

Fishmonger

How to say thing that shouldn't be told

How to tell when the thing to say will get the whole scenario worse?

How to express oneself when you couldn't get others to understand your situation

How to do to make others to understand your situation when they don't feel so

How to know what should be say...to be told...

How to express...how to make others to understand....

I just couldn't make the thing right

I am a Fishmonger

...

Aboard

My life's biggest dream is to travel around the world....

and I am doing it bit by bit

 

yet, I envy my friend who went aboard for study or even for the rest of their life...

I really wish that I could have a chance to live aboard, not just traveling

just for a short while...maybe a year?....just one country will do...

how is it like to live at a foreign country...

do I have that kind of courage and independency?

are they really that fantasy as how people described ???

...I wish....

The lost self

I miss those time in Uni...where I am on control of my time

do whatever when I feelso

perhaps I am worrying too much...why can't I just be myself

 

I seem losing my braveness, daring, confident...

Need to search back the lost piece...

I love that self back then...

Singapore Trip

 Is a wonderful trip to Singapore with seniors

Also a rare time traveling in Singapore like this.

we take train from KL to Singapore

although didn't sleep well in the train, but is really a nice experience.

First day we visited Universal Studio (USS), worth the ticket.

Transformer park is the MUST go place

Also for the red blue roller coaster, BEST !!! 

(although I just shut my eyes and scream throughout the way...lol)

Too bad I miss the Egypt coaster...

It is really FUN!!!

We also went to Chinatown, Merlion Park, Esplanade, Marina Bay Sand etc.

Garden by the Bay is really a beautiful place, the power tree is so big and nice

really admire those who work there...

We also visited the Harry Potter exhibition

super excited !!!....so many familiar thing over there ^^

Finally, we went to Singapore Botanical Garden

a place where I have no fate with....haha

a nice place to bring family along during the weekend...

also for our doggie friend...I saw so many husky there

pity them to bear such hot weather...:x....their fur is losing their beautiness...sad...

First time staying in backpecker hostel....is a nice experience.

Overall, really enjoyed the trip with you guys

Look forward for the coming trip ^^

Thank you

 ps: fail to upload photo...will try again later :p

Kuching trip

End of July 2012, we had a trip back to Kuching

Back to the familiar place, meeting with familiar people

It is a real nice trip....I miss you guys a lot

sad that the time are so limited...sorry if I didn't get to spend much with you guys...

anyhow, thank you for spacing out your time for me

I am really so happy to get to meet up with you all ^ ^

Glad to know that everybody is doing fine

Everyone is moving forward, grabbing each happiness in hand well

I am glad I chosen this uni, coz I met you guys

Thank you for being in my life for the past three years

and thank you for continue with me for the rest of the years

We shared a lot of memories

there might not be much chances for us to meet together and spend time as we used to be

but our memories will not fade

Take care my friends

Keep in touch

as you will always be in my heart ^ ^

 

Congratulaiton!!

She is engaged!!!

Is a expected unexpected news to me.

Am really happy for her, they deserve this blissing.

So fast yet for so long apart....He is the one that is for you

I know you will take good care of her.

You took her away from us

Make sure you will take good care of her

or else you know what I will do

is still a year ahead

I am so excited bout it

you will definitely be the most beautiful and happiness bride in the world

because you are with him

Congratulation to 

Shannon Choong and Richard Tan!!!

May both of them shower in bliss and happiness till the last rose fall

*rose refer to the rose given by Richard to Shannon.... :p

Everything will goes accordingly when the time come

HE has HIS plan for you

Bliss to my love, Ai ^ ^

Someone

Every time I saw your post, it is like a pin in my heart...

we used to be so close, used to mean so much to each other.

I am not sure is all this just my imagination or you feel as so too...

but somehow distance and time and drift us apart...

Somehow I wish to connect with you again

but I afraid this will bring back those sad memories...

Are we really that close or is just my thinking...

How are you?

How have you been?

I pray hard for you that everything goes fine with you.

I still do not have the courage to contact with you again

I am scared that the relationship will not be as what it used to be

All the best my friend

It seem something is troubling you but I know soon you will over come it

You know what...You Are The Best!....always...

Work

One more month than I had work in this company for one year.

Learned quite a lot in this company.

Quite a nice company for new biz to learn

but quite limited chance to be on a higher level

Once, a person told me:

you stay in a company for at least two years,

1st year you learn

2nd year you contribute

end of this two years, you review yourself and evaluate

is it worth for you to stay or to fly higher

I don't know can I last for so long

Don't wish to think about it

Work hard for now 

and I believe things will come slowly

and I will know where I truly belong

Be patient while work hard for me....

butterfly flying inside me but I will be patient for it...

KL Marathon 2012

First time participated marathon...

Didn't really trained very well....final month count down only have some slight intensive training.

Completed 33km in almost 7 hours.

For first timer with minimum training consider still acceptable

After half marathon, my joint start feeling pain and hard to continue running.

My determination and your support pushed me to finish till 33km.

without you I couldn't have completed it.

The feeling of fulfillment is nice...but the after effect is terrible

couldn't really walk properly for quite some day...

walk like an old lady with tong ka....lol

Overall is a nice experience...

hopefully one day I can really finish it with my own leg within the time limit...

ps: Thank you for your support and care all the way...^ ^

Glad that we finished it together

 

Now

Just realized that I am away from internet (i mean social network) for almost one month.

really lost in touch with quite something

Had been quite busy month

days seem passing super fast

The book you gave me said...

We cannot hold on the past, cannot know the future, only Now is what we have.

Why let the past drag you behind and struggling to hope for future

Work hard for now as this is what you have...

Questioning myself....

if so....how to prepare ourselve for future

don't we need to plan or just let the flow go?

HE had arrange for us 

just for us to decide whether to grab the opportunity or not....

Jia you...

Love Quote

Romantic do not need hug, do not need snuggle, 

it's the communication of heart, of spirits. 

Once I hold your hand in my hand, it's a promise for the whole life no matter what happened.

In love stupidly , live simply , snuggle clumsily , be together silly.

笨笨的相爱，呆呆的过日子，拙拙的依偎，傻傻的在一起。

Beloved Sarsi

Happen to found this in my hard disk, it make my day.

Things really change when times goes by....

Although the younger one look super cute, but don't worry, I still love you as now...

Missed you....take care ya ^^

Massage

Got this massage voucher from Groupon.

if not mistake, RM68 for lymphatic massage, full body wrap, neck treatment,

 stem, stomach and ear candle.

Not a bad experience.

Totally nude and just let the expert do their job...quite shy at first...:x

Kind of pain at certain area when they massage, but they say I am too over react...perhaps...

Anyhow, overall quite nice, didn't really feel anything special after complete the session

but quite sleepy...haha...too relax

and....slightly burn my tummy...(not very sure is it normal)

should give it a try if you have the chance, it wasn't really that bad

it is enjoyable ^^

ps:1. Use wrong way back home, end up drive quite some distance to back...

2. lock myself outside room...hopefully not that worse...pray hard while patient waiting...

3. ...hmm...speechless...

No told

Things that not told will not be known by people

therefore do not expect people to know it

and do not be greedy to expect more from them

But I just couldn't say it out

and greedyly expecting them to know...

I am just a street rat, running around hidding,

hoping one day I do not need to run anymore...

ps: 3 more months to go...

Too long

I think I had habitat ed too long...hopefully I will migrate soon....

Macau Trip

so call family trip to one of mum's incentive trip (sis didn't join the trip)

rush but a nice trip. not usual look around trip but a trip to "enjoy life"

we stayed at the hotel just beside the airport, 

from my room can view the entire runway...wow...

 Trip at Macau is basically casino casino and casino, it has about 30+ casino, by walking distance, I visited 6 casino in two night. Don't worry, you can have free shuttle bus to most major casino. 

Casino Lisboa

The Crown Casino

This kind of car appear in most of the casino we visited...gosh...hope one day own one of this...

Over the street, underground, even "San Lun Che", you will have all this beauty photo for you to pick. wow!!

 

The part I saw in this trip are just the luxury part, hopefully next time I can visit the cultural and historical part of Macau...^^

Will definitely see you again...

ps: sorry for the poor photo quality...:p

Weekend~

After working, weekend become one of my favourite.
Don't need to wake up early
Don't need to stuck in jam when off work
Most important, it is my free time to do my own things

However...

It is so precious yet I didn't use it wise...

Sometime I just plainly waste my time doing nothing
I need to cherish this precious free time before I need to sacrifice it for others

Wake up!! use your time wise
most important, without spending too much to use it wise...


JUST DO IT!!!


ps: a lot of things I want to do during weekend...just didn't start it due to certain reason...should start to think of other option...

Boss sharing

Boss told me this:
there are only two kind of people:
1. person who think
2. person who do

He said, person who think seldom do (i.e boss),
and this is where we need person who just do but don't think (i.e workers).

There is no impossible unless you are dreaming = think in your head without telling it

Think it and make it work, you may though it is impossible, but not others
It is too late to regret when you say this
" hey, I used to have this in mind too"

JUST DO IT & MAKE IT WORK!!!

Extra item

I know I doesn't belong to here.
I am noone at here...

but today, the feeling came from you
I don't know am I thinking too much
Your coldness make me feel that I am a trouble to here
or perhaps you are just too tension about things that happened

I am scared...
the leaving though is hunting me...

Target

Everyone has target in their life.

Your target is to become farmer and have your own building.

Now you are working on saving money

so that you can achieve your target or dream in the future.

You have your timeline by when you want to achieve it.

Her target is to complete her study and become the person that she want to be

She had well planned the flow of things, and do it accordingly step by steps

I believe she will eventually reach where she is going

She will definitely make it as she has the faith.

For me, I think I have a target, perhaps not very solid one.

I don't want to work under people

I want to work for myself

I have a rough idea but not very certain

perhaps I am lack of confident and faith

too much uncertainty?

How to look for the opportunity

How to be prepared for the opportunity

I need to open my eyes, widen my view

start thinking and plan it

Need not to be super famous and super rich

but lead a content and no regret life.

Repeat

Once you told me before
if you keep repeat one thing, eventually if will come true
is it true?....somehow...perhaps...

repeated argument
repeated dialogue
repeated content

i deeply truly hope all the bad thing will not happen
and only those repeated good thing will remain...

I don't dare to say it anymore....

Greediness

I understand that I am being too greedy.
Asking for too much when I already been given a lot.
I should be more grateful with what is been given
rather than feeling sadness and disappointment when request or wish is not being granted
I am not someone that is really special or worth for someone to sacrifice
I am just an ordinary person
Don't hoping others to fulfill my request or wishes
This is being too silly
Be practical and independent
get it yourself
this is the RIGHT way to do

her quote:"don't expect, because this will only lead to more disappointment"

I am still learning
sorry for the slow learning process...

I am sorry

That day I make you annoyed, I feel very bad about it.

I know I alwyas make you pek ceh,

but gladly you didn't give up on me.

Thank you for your patient and tolerant for me.

It might be worse if there is no you.

THANK YOU

Belonging

I seem losing the feeling of belonging.

I don't know where to look for shelter, where to be protected.

is there still place that I can voice out my mind?

do I belong to anywhere?

the feeling of floating nowhere is killing me...

2012

another new year

what I have done in the past year?
what I plan for this year?

nothing much in my head

wishing everyone that I love and care
can be in happy and healthy always

thank you for being there when I need
thank you for the consolidation, consult, ear to listen etc.

I will learn to become a better person
to not let everyone that I love and care
and everyone that love and care me
to be worried

2012...GooD GooD YeaR !!!

Communicate

How to communicate when you don't speak out your mind
I learned to do so, how about you??

I want to understand what is in your mind
I want to listen to your unsatisfactory
I want to hear all your complain
I want to share things happens in life

Please speak to me